[ Would he even believe her now if she said yes? ]

I was... it just never seemed like the right time.

[ And she was afraid of this very response. Her voice goes thick with emotion. ]

I did it to protect him, Varian, I'm not gonna pretend like that makes it better. But what would you have done? [ The idea of there being a next time, of him not being so lucky as to get out with only mental scars and a few bruises, and it being HER FAULT. She couldn't live with that. ]